Loving you.

Christmas Tree!

The time for festive celebration is here once again, just played my last mahjong game of my life, decided to quit the much loved game for good after series of poor and disappoint/discouraging hands. Though it gave me much pleasure during my three year stint playing the game, I still felt that its better that I stop for awhile.

On a lighter note, despite all that deadline and hectic schedule, Christmas is coming!

Saw beyond what others see.

Tomorrow's my last paper for this term, seriously can't wait for it to be over so that I can have more time for myself and other activities. After which will be preparing for projects and other random stuffs, endless.

Only revised 2 lectures and basically 4 more to go, how to get through the night?

So Far Away

He will live foREVer

"How do I live without the ones I love
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
And the light you left remains but it's so hard to stay
When I have so much to say and you're so far away"

We shouldn't stay in a place for too long, before we develop attachments for it. I do miss you but i know it was the right move to leave, before you even know it. Nothing last forever and all good things have to come to an inevitable end. I'm glad the pace of things are what it is right now and who knew what things might be if I've stayed?
Not interested and not looking back.

Without me

Real Madrid 0 - 5 Messi

Has always been a dream of mine to add a sofa in my room and now it's finally there in front of me! Was a great and quick decision to add it, really like it a lot ;D Piss, holiday's coming so it's probably time to relax after quite an exhausting first term, with 6 tests and 2 individual submissions, I believe we all deserved it.

Went for a korean concert night yesterday and DARN was it good. With my favourite 2pm and 2am there how can i not be there to show my support! The casts were Mblaq, Miss A, B2st, 2am and 2pm! The concert was DAEEEBAK! speechless much.

Does not make concessions.

This is a really remarkable week. Every thing's hectic and rush with everybody pushing for time, whether is it tests or reports deadline. Guess every body's doing a really good job at the moment ;)

Done with spa assignment so is it time for some football manager?

We'll be on very thin ice..

There are plenty of things to do yet always, so little time available. Perhaps it's what life is all about. Arsenal's not performing very well recently but still, I'll support them no matter what happens right?

Besides that, I'm very addicted to football manager but guess what, I'm managing Liverpool! I just can't stand their poor performances despite a star studded team, so obviously something's not right.. Hence I appeared!

And guys, you should listen to 'auto tune the news' on youtube, they're freaking awesome!

Liquid Luck?

My night was partly ruined by the epic fact that the gunners actually lost to our arch rivals Tottenham after leading 2-0 over half time! I mean what went wrong, a lack of concentration or simply complacent? We really have to get our acts up guys, if not that's it to our season, again.

But thankfully, the night was slightly revived by a sumptuous supper with Hwee Yon just over at 401 kopitiam. Caught the Liverpool game and was partially motivated to manage them over in Football Manager. They weren't quite there yet but it was a pretty solid performance, both for Liverpool and Robert Green.

Now the most important thing is to concentrate really hard and complete both of my individual projects as well as revising LRFM test!

Big Bang Theory?

Just the sight of it is enough to....

There was this day, an influx of thoughts, some were divine interventions whereas others were simply there to make the rest look better.

It's always like this isn't it? There are always times like this where we don't know where our beliefs stands. Weird dreams they call it but I'm fine with it though. Intricate yet fascinating. Right, let's encrypt tonight then.

Lost in the world.

Shag was how I felt,
from the blows they dealt.
Flash light shining brightly as always,
emptiness equipped, alone, gone without a trace.

Be careful they told me,
at the magic hour,
I've never noticed that.

Really don't give a damn.

Hands all over.

All of a sudden, my 3 months holiday ended and I'm about to return to school after a 9 months break from school. Not anticipating it seriously, I suppose its the same scenario everywhere else.

It's a mixed emotion that's brewing inside because it's already my last semester but just the thought of heading for lectures and tutorials are major turn offs. Army's knocking on my door as well, guess it's time to face it like a man.

Oh well, they're inevitable so yeah. My friends are into entertainment, guess they wanna join entertainment angency in the future. It's good, it doesn't hurt to dream big. I had them too but gave up, not practical enough for me. Stop smoking already since it has been close to 3 years since I've started. I'm glad.

Hip Song rock tonight.

Clock reads 6:22am. Gosh, it's already morning. Just had supper and Lan with the regulars. Guess it's the holiday hype that's why all of us are yearning for more zombies and late nights.

Soon but not too soon, the holiday's gonna end and start of another semester like the previous few, uninspired ones. Oh well, when the day comes we'll know and as for now, oh wait, think I heard somebody calling me.

Gonna receive some serious satori in my dreams.

So hard to keep her satisfied.

Time flies and yes, it's already the last day of september. For those who wanted to be woken up by the time it ends, yes today's the day. Didn't realise it till I saw that it has been exactly a month since my last post. Well, many things happened along the way and of course, enjoyed every little bits of it.

Been working at terminal two for the past two months, got my well deserved rest @ Bali last week, like finally. Other than that, things have been pretty mundane, like really boring. Guess I ain't the only feeling that. Travelling seemed to be the only major break through for me this year, and in a blink of an eye, we're three quater past the year.

Sure enough, we've matured and grown up. There are certain things that aren't in place yet but oh well, time's on our side. Enjoyed myself seriously, the people around me are pretty much having the same vibe as they had when we first met.

Keep things that way please.

There's something about the way the street looks when it's just rained

I'm a new vegetarian1

Emotional stress is merely a state of mind which people think that they are stress and worried over things that are important, only to realise eventually that they aren't.

It's only human to switch between things that attracts us however in this case of interest conflicting one another. It's kind of tough choosing the things that's interesting and really financially capable.

Damn sucks to be vex over such trival yet essential part of life, oh well, that's growing up. We desire so much yet giving so little.

說了再見

Haven't been around for quite some time, thought I'll hardly come back and yes, I was right. Has been busy with things recently that explains my disappearance from blog but oh well, all is fine and fantastic at the moment!

The month went off perfectly with the "Les Trio" finalising our Bali trip! We're definitely going there on the 21st and returning on 28th amigos! I love working at Terminal 2!

Obviously

It's more than a known fact that shit happens and there is nothing we can do about it, that's life they say. Recent events have made several significant changes to my life. Maybe they are true.

Decisions, decisions. What's new?

'Cause obviously,
She's out of my league
But how can I win
She keeps draggin' me in and
I know I never will be good enough for her.

No, no
Never will be good enough for her.
Gotta escape now

I've escaped already.

Servants.

Can't deny, I'm very afraid of truth itself. Not like I'm new to such ideas but who's fine with them. They're little devils that thrive under pressure. You, who tend to escape when you face them, will realise that whatever you try to aviod, will huant you one of these days.

Thorns, thorns. They tarnish the image that we have for roses but yet, what can we do without them? Without them, you'll prolly not realise how beautiful things are protective of themselves. You'll probably die a loner one day.

Well, this logic is identical in dealing with childish adults that we meet in our everyday lifes. Thought to oneself :"have you really grown up? Seriously, makes me wonder."

Dotz, dotz & more dotz.

Fearless

They exclaimed :"Boy, in our place, you play with the rules."
We thought :"Seriously? What do you know about rules & regulations"

The one simple rule is that everybody loves a rebel. At times we all need a break, a break from this environment that we're in. It's probably time for that change. That's why I opt for the new environment.

P.S. Last 2 days!

That's life.

They say that all sufferings began from a simple attachment to any thing. Can be a place, a person or even a thing. As long as there are memories along with it. Kudos to that and probably because we needed a change. There's nothing wrong with changes, especially for a moment like this.

Bruises cover your arms

Wow, it has been almost a week since my last post. Well probably because it's the last month of my internship and of course, as I would have expected, shits starts pilling up.

What to do? The only thing we can do is to give a grin and endure these shits given by officials who possibly lack teenage years, teenage experience. Vulgarities are really coming out of my mouth because of these shit. Seriously, who says it's going to be easy.

There's too many heartaches around me, I really can't wait for time to past by and we return to school, with stories of our own experience and I won't mention this part. Really to me it's just a fucking waste of time & call me ignorant or whatever please you, I think there's something wrong up there with you guys. Thus organizing such ridiculous events can please your need for 'fun', you guys are a pathetic lot.

& really, what was with the 'sexy image' that you guys wants the girls to portray? What the fuck is going through your mind when you made those comments. I do understand that we're paid for these but seriously, sexy? Why not your mum coming to portray it for all of us and see if our anger will cease. Seriously _|_ you guys.

27 more days, just you wait.

Nutmeg!

While working at zoo these past months, I sort of forgotten that I was there for my internship because really, it felt nothing of that. Except when I receive my regular $550 pay check.

Down to my final month over there already. Still considering whether I should stay or not but really, nothing is finalized yet. At times, in life, we couldn't see what's in front of us until you notice a difference but couldn't tell just what's missing. That's when you're really missing it and looking silly.

雨下一整晚,你撑把小纸伞

白杨木
影子被拉长
像我对你的思念走不完

原来我从未习惯
你已不在我

身旁.

Beevers.

They:"What were you trying to do?"
Me:"I've no idea."
They:"What were you trying to prove?"

What was I trying to prove there? I stood there, in a state of amazement, wondering if those words were true. Wondering if they were meant for me. Talk to me when I'm a lot more sober because only then will I know what we are talking about.

I would call you up every Saturday night
And we both stayed out till the morning light
And we sang, "Here we go again"
And though time goes by
I will always be there for you, always be there.

Knitting some thing for you is a enjoyable.

That's why they mentioned that only at the moment when you loses some thing of great importance, will you finally understand its standing in your life. What a shame, why wait for some thing that important slip off your fingers when its here, as always?

What a shame.

The take over, the break's over.

I enjoy talking to you, slacking with you, joking with you, playing with you and just eating with you. But I'm unsure of certain things, I've no idea how to come clean with it.

You've got nothing to lose, don't be afraid to get down.

Get it enough.

They are content with simple, little pleasures in life. Content with loneliness as well. They thought that they've shrugged off and are living in happiness from now onwards but how wrong they were. Another heartbreak's coming their way, coming their way.

They'd never sing of love if it does not exist.

Now it kills me, to hear you say the simple things.

Dearest ( ),

Some says that I'm on the highway to hell, I really couldn't agree more to their remarks. I thought I was going nuts but after today, I'm pretty calm and steady, every thing's thrown out of my miserable little frame of mind.

It's not right, not okay to continue being this way that I've been for the past few days, especially.. It's been months and I've finally let it go, throughly. I'm glad, really delighted. I'm starting to understand that it was more of a mutual thing and it's never gonna be the same. I like the way things are now and thank you for every little sacrifice you made, they didn't went by unnoticed.

Yours affectionately,
Me.

The Swan.

There was this girl who once did mean stuffs to me, or rather a group of us, a very close group, told me that she believes in karma, I sincere wondered whether she really understand what she was saying.

But I believed her, especially after making such a dubious and unconvincing remark, because I think that one would only make such comments after experiencing it.

You're such a pretty face it's more than pleasing to the eyes.

Bali bali barley bali Bali.

The life of a rebel, who is to judge whether such acts of treachery are even right or wrong to begin with? Ever heard of the legendary "Bonnie & Clyde" story? They are not, of the slightest, afraid of the law or even what others think of them.

Think it's better to face such things with a sense of poise and rationality.

"I don't know, I just don't know."

Gosh.

She had some troubles with herself. He was always there to help her. She never belonged to you, technically speaking. You want to make her feel beautiful, make her secure, it doesn't matter anymore.

It's not always rainbows and butterflies. I know you wanna make her feel beautiful and it really doesn't matter anymore, doesn't matter no more. I guess she hopes that you can stop trying so hard to say good bye.

She whispered:"Please don't try so hard to say good bye"

I guess that we all have to come to this conclusion that nothing last forever. Flames to dust, lovers to friends, all good things, will eventually, come to an inevitable end.

Livin' on the prayer.

The past is a really scary, deep pit hole that can easily engulf you in it's wilderness. One wrong move and the next thing you know is that you're in this crazy little emotional state that people find it frightening.

While we're involve in this chitty chat about our future, about what we want to do after our internships or about our respective travel destinations, it is definitely a known fact that there are people suffering.Even in our country - Singapore.

But of course, like I've said, without suffering, there is no compassion, even for ourselves. If there weren't suffering around the world, we wouldn't have known how fortunate we are. The educations we received, the futures we have, the living environments we're staying in now and the plans we intend to implement.

Speaking of that, recently I went out with several of my course mates and were talking about what are some of the possible courses we want to go for after we officially graduate coming next May. I do have several ideas right now but I'm pretty sure, me being 100% me, will surely be picky over the choices that are available.

Alright, enough of this unbelievably long post on seemingly nonsense. Oh well, it's after all my personal blog, my personal space to disclose every inch of my doubts, beliefs, rants & whines or even intimate affairs. I miss you all of a sudden.

New Impression.

Stress can be a positive or negative source of motivation. One can be intensively spurred to work towards a target or better-than-before result under the right amount of stress and pressure.

One last thing to add on, respect works both ways so please. Do what is appropriate.

Sunday Morning.

They say without suffering there is no space for compassion. To certain extend that is pretty true but in a 'perfect & ideal' world, non of us wanna be in that position to be considered as - suffering. Suffering is everywhere, from every corner of the city, the world.

On a lighter note, I just had a section outing recently and it was great. All that chit chatting and gossiping.

She's having my baby =/

you left your words hanging at your tongue,
what are you implying.
standing in front of me,
I can't see the city lights clearly.

Memory doesn't means anything,
saying some thing special now,
Can't change a thing.
Oh, can't change nothing.

It disappears, it vanishes.

Hey folks,

It's 12/05/2010, which also means that I'm half way through my Student Internship Program at Singapore Zoo yo. Life's there fine not to mention the stress i initially had when I started my duties there.

Everyday was a struggle for me, not now anymore. I'm glad that things are getting better but the bottles of Heineken are still there.

My trumpet's Stacy

Different people have different concerns and ideas and we have to accept it. We have to accept that despite the difference we once had the same goal, the same target. But that was all history. You were the only exception and now, you're no different from any of them.

I still feel it. I don't understand. Guess it's merely a crazy thought that shouldn't be there but I can't help it. It's supposed to be gone already, right?

I miss you so much, Stacy. But it's over.

Till death do us part.

The past three days have been incredible. Simply slack off the entire three consecutive off days with online movies, hanging out at lan shops playing battle field and supper sessions. Love it :)

Watched several films online, like I've mentioned previously, some notable ones are like "The Bounty Hunter", "Forgetting Sarah Marshall" and the list goes on & on. But seriously, I'm in love with these movies with catchy, mushy lines, actings and plot. Especially this show - Camille. I was really attracted by the red hair in the first place in the trailer but slowly I'm into that wretched couple! A man, together with his dead bride man.

Oh well, he wasn't that into her in the first place but was touched by her sincerity and so was I. What can I say? Pulled my heartstrings man.

oh, baby.

I enjoy thinking deep while I'm lying on my bed. Thinking of all the good times we had and just smile like a complete idiot, sometimes even laughed to myself. But oh well, we've changed and it's pointless thinking of the past for we should always look forward.

Tomorrow's my 6th week at Zoo retail shop. I've really enjoyed myself, all thanks to my colleague there, making things really comfortable. Was listening to 98.7 & really, blink 182's "I miss you" really sounded fantastic even after years.

Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head, I miss you X.

Not a loner.

You may say Im a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope some day you'll join us
And the world will live as one

Prayers.

you taught me to have compassion and faith. Now please, give me some directions.

uh huh change.

"One must learn to be content, it's so important"

Killing floor

Wow! Today's a very unique day & I have to say it was truly a day well spent! Went out early with my boys, Kervin & Hwee Yon, to the legendary Indonesian Embassy yo! Reason's pretty simple, to extend the indon prince's passport :)

The trip there was F**K up. It's almost impossible to get in because it's like "I don't even know where" kind of area dude! But oh well, we still made it through this ordeal.

Then to Park Lane, aka Paradiz Centre, for some awesome zombie killing man! Was introduced to this game - Killing Floor & BANG! We were so addicted to it man! The graphics are ok but what's really fun from "Left4Dead 1/2" is the fact that the game itself is much more challenging (difficulty), there are loads of nice weapons uh. & The zombies are so cute!

Other games included - Call of Duty (world at war baby!)

Aww, I'm working tomorrow.. Well can't complain much because I've already rested for two freaking days but of course, the count down reads 130 days!

True Blessing.

Are you hollow man?

"Where can I purchase more time & energy?" Hah!

Internship begun exactly a week ago, damn! We (Shirlyn, Joe & me) were so tired throughout the whole entire week man seriously! But of course, always look on the bright side, it's 5 days work-week at least & the pay is pitifully $50 more than the rest! & we're 19 weeks to heaven.

People there's pretty fun & outgoing, thumb's up for them. However yeah, there'll always be individuals who always puts on this irritating front who treats you as if you're "Hollow man"! but argh. Just hope they won't complain any of us to the supervisor or manager!

Alright that's all for the moment, sleeping time sup. Ciao outside!

I was wrong yo.

Their first dance song!

Heartfelt, heartache.

Confessions of a friend.

(A group gay picture of us)
Woot!

I think I'm such a noob tp student because many of my course mates already know the trick to check results even before it's out! & of course other 'stylo milo' tricks uh. So as soon as I learn about the trick there, I tried it out & bang! I passed everything! Repeat after me - EVERYTHING.

How nice is that?

Important modules like Mice, accounting and even my stupid cds - Business Chinese! I mean, I'm really grateful to the lecturer, Mr Wang Yong! Bravo! Speaking of these results, I really thought I would fail accounting because of all the stupid careless mistakes I made but oh well, it's already over, the results are almost* out, I passed, that's it, full stop.

Next up, I think/believe/feel that I've come to the end of the road after 7 years of interest. That's it. Yay (Y)

Hope you there, passed with flying colors :)

If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

Such a beautiful song!

Multimedia.

No doubt it's a tough decision to make but seriously, I'm glad I've made that decision. Great! Tomorrow's Thursday, that means I've exactly 4 days to prepare. This four days' gonna be the toughest days after such a long break.

you once told me you were the epitome.

Girls' Generation

They say that talent only takes you this far, but hard work will bring you further. I think I'm rather indecisive & crazy, naive and maybe a little bit of insanity were displayed at times. Can't help but think that I'm really very immature.

I'm sorry =/

The greatest - Cat Power \m/_

趁时间没发觉, 让我带着你离开
没有了证明, 没有了空虚,
基於两种立场我会罩着你.

趁时间没发觉, 让我带着你离开.
这不是顽固, 这不是逃避,
没人绑着你走才快乐.

$288 painting.

Too beautiful not to share with you guys. aww ♥ Tiffany :)

髮如雪

Happy Chinese New Year to all!

It has been a fantastic week so far, distinction(& also the best group) for culi's execuation week! Great team work there by us, really have to admit this semester's the best I've ever had in TP. Definitely gonna miss it once we go for our SIP.

Went to Chinatown with my section mates. The place was filled with people yo! but at the same time, not a lot of stuffs were worth buying except for food of course. Like the german sausages & fruit jellys aka. 果冻.

Exam's coming, it's the study week cum CNY week. Things are gonna get hectic I can foreeeeeee-see that! but it's ok, everything's under control :) On second thought, I really do hope that pokerstrategy can give me the $50 that I'm entitled to, so that I can start my poker journey!

But before that, Nuovo Anno Cinese Felice! & 愉快的情人节!

I'll rattle your bones!

Before I start, just wanna say "I'VE SURVIVED 17 WEEKS OF SSM!".

My last week of this semester started in splendid fashion! Not only did we(service @ sugarloaf) hit the target of $1,500, I personally felt that the operation was smooth despite the comments received wasn't too welcoming.

But generally, it was just another operation.

My results this semester wasn't as bad as I thought it would in the first place either, both Cs for BESE & SSM(55%), which was average. But oh well, this semester's ending and should really strive to pull up my GPA! Argh =/

To top things off, I'm really enjoying myself with my peers more often nowadays!

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you've got me so hypnotised.

Never in a million years would I thought this day will come. But oh well, since it's here, I guess it's curtain close. I certainly felt the immediate relieve of stress, burden and responsibility. Like the great man before me said before, "rocks" are the most important thing in life, they are your priorities.

Rocks - Family, health, friends and your passion.

Flight of The Bumble Bee.

Practice. Practice & more practice. Patience is the key, really.

What others think of you is not important, what's important is how you view yourself. It's definitely easier said than done. All this while I thought that by consistantly improving is the way to gain respect among all you haters out there but I was wrong.

full stop.

It's so difficult to bid good bye.... I don't want it to end....

Meet me half way.

She said that I'm only capable of making her happy with gifts. I don't agree with that stand. Are you really happy if I'm no longer around. That statement she made, made me felt so small & inferior in her life, somewhat unappreciated. I hope she can read this and understand that everything I did or said was for the best of her.

My reactions to her, in a dress, was perceived negatively, but that also shows me that she's concern of how i view or think of her. I took a moment too long to reply her that's because I was uncomfortable with her in a short skirt. I didn't like it but if she's happy with it, I'm convinced. I love her so much, too much.

Once I read from a book, "To love somebody, before learning how to hold on to them, we must learn to let them go." Is that true? I'm sure, damn sure, it's not. I will prove it, by force is definitely not the way.

I love her & only her. This relatationship is too important.

Alter

Saying sorry, or apologising, does not mean that you're wrong or justifying. But simply means that you care about your relationship with that person more than your own ego.

I (L) You

When a quarrel we had needs mending,
does it mean that our love is ending?
Darling, I need you, lately I find
you're out of my heart,
and I'm out of my mind.

Let our hearts take wings
round midnight, midnight.
Let the angels sing,
for your returning,
till our love is safe and sound
and old midnight comes around.

Round Midnight

I will never understand. It's just you being the original you. you suck.

Not while I'm around.

Demons are prowling everywhere, nowadays,
I'll send 'em howling,
I don't care, I got ways.

No one's gonna hurt you,
No one's gonna dare.
Others can desert you,
Not to worry, whistle, I'll be there.

When Worlds Collide.

天青色等烟雨, 而我在等你
炊烟袅袅昇起, 隔江千万里
在瓶底书汉隶仿前朝的飘逸, 就当我
为遇见你伏笔.

天青色等烟雨, 而我在等你
月色被打捞起, 晕开了结局
如传世的青花瓷自顾自美丽, 你眼带笑意.