Lunch time performance.

Enough said.

Only until everything is over then we'll learn. Not bad though the content of the chat we had. Modesty is the language we use nowadays but the hard work and glory was what we earned in the past. Ah fuck it, why so emotional? Be glad that it's over, look forward!

Who could really blame you?

"When you walked through the door
It was clear to me
You’re the one they adore, who they came to see
You’re a... rock star
Everybody wants you
Player... Who could really blame you
We're the ones who made you"

Still don't give a fuck.

I gotta feeling,
that tonight's gonna be a good night.

Indeed, it was a night well spent. Despite our various differences, we still managed to built a rapport among us. I love you :D

Anyway, recently I had a chat with my care-person. It was quite a long chat but trust me she did enlighten me on many many things. Her experience in life is vast and very rewarding to listen to.

I'm heading route A. No regrets.

Rebel Yell with coke.

After doing this particular thing for about a month or so, I suddenly had a change in target. Which I think is quite cool. Never to judge or look down on something for we are not as good as well. So yeah, hopefully I can get in, EVENTUALLY.

Future Tokyo Kosei Wind's Trumpeter (like real)

Many people are unaware of this but in fact they have strong influencing power among their peers, depending on which organisation they belong to. When i started learning the trumpet, there ain't much good players around but it's only then when I joined TP band then I actually had an idea of what other bands are doing.

It inspired me. And dude, you had all the damn cool recordings from Tokyo Kosei. Now that's GAY!

Alright, I shall start practicing with the 3c mouthpieces. To be a pro, you have to act like one. HAHA

"Just Don't Give A Fuck"

Well the title is a song by Eminem. I always fancy his songs because his lyrics are not the common kind you hear from songs. They are expressions of how he felt towards the society.

And now that's how I feel. Just don't give a fuck.

ABC.

I'm having this mix emotions in me right now, in fact for the past few days. It's like you really want to do this, you heart wanted you to do this but you mind simply rejects the idea because you have this thing in you and it's called responsibility.

I simply can't take the risk.

Stanley

My tea's gone cold I'm wondering,
why I got out of bed at all.
The morning rain clouds up my window,
but I can't see at all.
Even if I could, it'd all be gray but you picture's on my wall.
It reminds me that it's not so bad,
it's not bad.

Dream on.

"Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away"

Recently, things have been roller coaster rides for me. There are so many crazy asses everywhere in Singapore. It's insane how they can actually believe things that don't even exist. Things simply sucks this week, from dealing with crazy shits to the death of the king of pop, Michael Jackson.

The thing about him that really earn my respect is the level of difficulty, not for his dancemoves, but his songs. Take a look at "Gone Too Soon" or even "Beat It". It's that damn tough to sing his songs well.

That's why he's irreplacable. And we should really thank him for all the things he has done, all the charity work, all the donations and the "WOW!" that he gave us. I can only think of one reason for his shock departure from us. The Lord needed him more than we need him :D

Rest well, Michael.

Go Rocky.

"What is it you said to the kid? The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very rough, mean place... and no matter how tough you think you are, it'll always bring you to your knees and keep you there, permanently... if you let it. You or nobody ain't never gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit... it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward... how much you can take, and keep moving forward. If you know what you're worth, go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit..."

F the bottle

This few days are simply mixed emotions. One moment you're happy, one moment you are pissed off. Crazy people are everywhere, they worry about things that don't exist or simply living in their own world.

I'm in no position to judge anybody.

But somehow I feel that it's unfair that I'm going through this yet somebody who actually proposed the idea is not doing anything and just pass it to me. If I'm really pissed, tell you what, I will just pass the whole thing back to where it started and you better watch it, coz I'm not part of it.

Princess day.

Like a rainbow, fading in the twinkling of an eye..

Today's your princess day, please promise me that you will be optimistic no matter whatever shits' thrown at you, for you're flawless in my eyes. You are standing in front of me, waving yet i couldn't see a thing. That was how i felt at times of desperation.

Mood swings are often and unpredictable, they come and go as and when they like it. Seriously no idea why, they make me laugh at times knowing that you didn't mean what you said but you look cute when you scold me.

Often thinking too much or planning too deep into the future, just only make me realise that you're the one for me. I never thought that it would be you, just like how you thought in the first place but yeah it hell is. I love you and will try to make life fucking comfortable for the both of us :D

Once again, happy 18th birthday to you, my dearest baby - Azraini :D